nostalgia

Funny how the holidays bring out nostalgia in almost everyone. Memories from our childhoods, longings for the present, wishes for the future...
Well, this year I am no different. I was paging through a pregnancy magazine (crying my eyes out) today looking at pictures of the amazing process of growing life, a baby, inside me. WOW! Honestly, nothing could have prepared me for this time. Just thinking about all the development happening to our little one makes my mind spin. Myriads of emotions spinning around in me...joy, excitement, anticipation, nervousness, anxiety, even a little fear. But, when it all comes down to it, I feel blessed. Completely 100% blessed. I not only have a wonderful family, I have a man who amazes me every day with his capacity to love me, and now I am a part of growing a new little life we get to love and nurture.
You know that part in the Bible where Mary is told she is "blessed among women?" Well, I don't want to be blasphemous, but that is exactly how I feel. Thank you, Lord, for choosing me to carry this child! What an amazing blessing! Life is awesome.